Yes, my friends this is what it sounds like inside of a MRI scan. I only had to be in there for 14 minutes but that was long enough.
The technician handed me ear plugs as I laid down. The machine was already making a noise. I didn't think I really needed the ear plugs for that. I could handle it. After all, I am a first grade teacher.
He told me that would hear a lot of banging and not to move AT ALL. Well, ok then. (Truthfully, my knee started aching about halfway through. I think I was holding my breath because I didn't want to do this again.)
All week I had been fine. "I'm not nervous about the MRI," I told co-workers and friends. "I am more nervous about the results and what's to come," I said. This is a girl who spent the majority of her teens in tanning beds. (I know, I know. I don't go anymore but I did during 2000-2001 prom season.) Surely, it couldn't be any worse than that. I mean, a tanning bed actually closes over you.
Ok, here's the truth. That noise was scary. Not in the way that I felt like I was going to be harmed scary, but in the way that haunted houses are scary. You know that nothing's actually going to happen to you but there's still a healthy fear there.
Not only was I in this tiny enclosed space, but it was so loud. Literally, my head is throbbing right now, but inside there I was not hurting. I was nervous. Irrational anxiety hit me like a ton of bricks.
I just started praying and praising. Worship over worry, right? I'm thankful to be healthy, to have an able body, even if I can't run right now. It will come, all at the right time. I could be battling much scarier things than a bum knee. I know that and do not want to take that for granted. I'm grateful the overabundance of people who care about me and share a common thread in my life. I'm overwhelmed by the love I feel that I desire to share what I can with others so that they may make their lives shine brighter. As the name states, I live with an overwhelmed heart and for that I express gratitude. So, no matter what that scan reveals, I know that I have enough.
Have you ever had an MRI or a scarier scan?
What has your worse injury been? How did you overcome it?
It is scary when you are in a situation beyond your control! I have had a MRI done and even if you have never had a problem with enclosed spaces, all of a sudden you do! I will be praying for good results for you!
ReplyDeleteThank you!! I should know next week.
ReplyDeleteI will be praying for good results for you!! I have had an MRI and they are scary!!
ReplyDeleteNo no MRI {thank goodness} however I have heard how "scary" they can be. Exrays are the most I have had and not many...I would most likely go into a panic attack if I were to be in that position
ReplyDeleteOh yes, I had an MRI of my brain about 2 years ago when I got Bells Palsy. My head was locked in a crazy contraption and I couldn't move. I was in there for 45 minutes! I had to keep my eyes closed the entire time to keep myself from panicking and hitting the panic button.
ReplyDeleteI hope you get nothing but good news!
Oh my goodness. I cannot imagine that. Thanks for the well wishes! I'm hope you're recovered!
ReplyDeleteI never had anything that scared me or test to pass. I hate closed spaces so that would drive me crazy! I hope you do well!
ReplyDeleteThank you Annabel! Get results on Wednesday!
ReplyDeleteLearning that worshiping helps overcome a lot of fear. MRI's are not fun- I had to have one my back in 2011. Never again unless I have no other choice!
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