Thursday, February 27, 2014

Oh, and don't move AT ALL

womp womp womp womp. BANG BANG BANG BANG.  CLANGITTY CLANGITTY CLAGITTY.  CLANG CLANG CLANG.

real


Yes, my friends this is what it sounds like inside of a MRI scan.  I only had to be in there for 14 minutes but that was long enough.

The technician handed me ear plugs as I laid down.  The machine was already making a noise.  I didn't think I really needed the ear plugs for that.  I could handle it.  After all, I am a first grade teacher.

He told me that would hear a lot of banging and not to move AT ALL.  Well, ok then.  (Truthfully, my knee started aching about halfway through.  I think I was holding my breath because I didn't want to do this again.)

All week I had been fine.  "I'm not nervous about the MRI," I told co-workers and friends.  "I am more nervous about the results and what's to come," I said.  This is a girl who spent the majority of her teens in tanning beds.  (I know, I know.  I don't go anymore but I did during 2000-2001 prom season.)  Surely, it couldn't be any worse than that.  I mean, a tanning bed actually closes over you.

Ok, here's the truth.  That noise was scary.  Not in the way that I felt like I was going to be harmed scary, but in the way that haunted houses are scary.  You know that nothing's actually going to happen to you but there's still a healthy fear there.

Not only was I in this tiny enclosed space, but it was so loud.  Literally, my head is throbbing right now, but inside there I was not hurting.  I was nervous.  Irrational anxiety hit me like a ton of bricks.

I just started praying and praising.  Worship over worry, right?  I'm thankful to be healthy, to have an able body, even if I can't run right now.  It will come, all at the right time.  I could be battling much scarier things than a bum knee.  I know that and do not want to take that for granted.  I'm grateful the overabundance of people who care about me and share a common thread in my life.  I'm overwhelmed by the love I feel that I desire to share what I can with others so that they may make their lives shine brighter.  As the name states, I live with an overwhelmed heart and for that I express gratitude.  So, no matter what that scan reveals, I know that I have enough.

gratitude


 Have you ever had an MRI or a scarier scan?

What has your worse injury been?  How did you overcome it?

9 comments:

  1. It is scary when you are in a situation beyond your control! I have had a MRI done and even if you have never had a problem with enclosed spaces, all of a sudden you do! I will be praying for good results for you!

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  2. I will be praying for good results for you!! I have had an MRI and they are scary!!

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  3. fitnessmomwinecountryFebruary 27, 2014 at 5:54 PM

    No no MRI {thank goodness} however I have heard how "scary" they can be. Exrays are the most I have had and not many...I would most likely go into a panic attack if I were to be in that position

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  4. Oh yes, I had an MRI of my brain about 2 years ago when I got Bells Palsy. My head was locked in a crazy contraption and I couldn't move. I was in there for 45 minutes! I had to keep my eyes closed the entire time to keep myself from panicking and hitting the panic button.
    I hope you get nothing but good news!

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  5. Oh my goodness. I cannot imagine that. Thanks for the well wishes! I'm hope you're recovered!

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  6. I never had anything that scared me or test to pass. I hate closed spaces so that would drive me crazy! I hope you do well!

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  7. Thank you Annabel! Get results on Wednesday!

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  8. Learning that worshiping helps overcome a lot of fear. MRI's are not fun- I had to have one my back in 2011. Never again unless I have no other choice!

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